Musings

It has been two weeks.  I tried to reach out twice but never received a reply. I think that is what's bothersome to me. When he could, he would keep in touch, and often to just say "hi" or to share things on his mind such as a song from memory that he was hearing being played somewhere, or a previously seen movie running on TV/cable, or an observation from work and human nature in general. Regardless, he would drop me a note so that I know how he's doing and that he's still around.  But the way things are, contact abruptly stopped so I am left to speculate as to why.  It just seems so unusual for him to just disappear. Maybe it's just my disappointment talking, and a combined degree of frustration and anxiety on whether I will hear from him again. I can only manage my own reaction to the situation, and for now, let things be.  Is it possible that he has already given me his answer by not replying? If so, perhaps my mind just hasn't reconciled it yet.